A year or so ago, I worked in a hospital with people who had been hospitalized due to severe mental issues. As I started working with the patients I was shocked to see how fragmented and smashed their auras were. It was as if their auras had been shattered by the breakdown or trauma they had experienced. Looking at their energy I could appreciate how fragile and tired they seemed, how what they had experienced had slowed their thinking and reduced their emotional responses. I could well appreciate it must take time to recover, to get better, and build up their energy, and their auras to a point where these patients would seem more solid, more grounded and more robust. I realised that some of the patients might never achieve that.
As mental health issues are more in the open now, and people are more willing to talk or write about their experiences in the media or the internet, it seemed to me that mental health is a massive and complex area of health. Observing the patients in hospital I had a sense of how devastating some mental health issues are and how this showed up in the auras of patients.
Then I knew of people who had depression because of imbalance of the body chemistry and the influence of genetics. This showed up differently in the aura compared to the people I had seen in hospital. Then I knew of people who experienced depression and PTSD because of their experiences, and how the energy of these lodged in their systems.
My own experiences of mental health issues had been minor in comparison. It happened in a period of two weeks when I was twenty. My mind seemed fragile and I just knew my thinking was really not right and a bit crazy. I dealt with that by just keeping life as simple as I could. The episode passed.
In my late twenties, after I had found out about spirituality, a healer who gave readings looked down my timeline and said I would experience a dark period later in the year. When it started several months later, it was like everything looked and felt black and depressing. It was difficult to describe how my mind felt, the closest I could get was that it was lacking in joy, it just felt grim and black, without a happy thought, and depressed. Even though I felt that way, having been warned earlier, I knew this period would end, so for a few months, daily I made myself visualize several goals I had decided on earlier. I made myself exercise and go for walks. I felt like I was processing my way through darkness. After a few months, the dark period lifted, as if I had walked out of a tunnel. The joy of life came back.
I have read a lot on social media about people discover spirituality for the first time, who have an “awakening”, then go on to experience depression, and in some cases, anxiety.
In the 1990’s I read a couple of books called Esoteric Psychology I and II. They were written by Alice Bailey who wrote many books to do with spirituality with a spiritual Tibetan guide between 1919 and 1949. She wrote that in the future as more spiritual energy came in and people opened up to spirituality, there would be new issues to do with mental health. At the time of reading I was surprised by this, but I get the drift of this more now. If new energy comes into chakras it can create effects in the mind, emotions and physical body, some of which can be difficult to deal with. I could see that if a person suddenly realises that what they thought about life and how it happens wasn’t true, and that life happens a different way, this can be extremely difficult for the mind to cope with. Gone is a sense of what a person can rely on, and gone is the identity they had built up. If there is nothing to replace it, then that is really hard for the mind, and the emotions to cope with.
This kind of mental illness shows up differently in a person’s energy, and has a cause to do with spiritual energy, and an event, called an “awakening”, as far as I can make out. This kind of mental health issue can be dealt with.
This kind of thing happened as well in the 1980’s and the 1990’s. But the culture was very different in the spiritual world. It was expected that at times on a person’s spiritual journey that things would get a little crazy, but there was a lot of support. Looking back, I realised that everyone that I knew that was going on their individual spiritual path looked after themselves because pursuing health wellbeing was all wrapped up in the idea of spiritual growth. People were careful what they ate, how they looked after their body, and even then hydration was a big thing. For emotional health it was normal to get some therapeutic help. For mental health and support people would read books, and I’m amazed when I look at today’s spirituality best seller lists they contain a lot of the same books I read back then. People also went to groups to learn and practise healing and therapeutic techniques, and meditation and movement disciplines. There was a lot of physically meeting up. People looked after themselves and each other. In those years depression just wasn’t something that happened because someone became spiritual.
What happened at the 11:11 Harmonic Convergence in Glastonbury, England, 1987, typified it for me. The spiritual energy was high, and affected people in different ways, including triggering issues and painful feelings and thoughts for a few people. But there was a lot of support the whole time. There were meditation groups, there were healing groups, massage, crystals and therapy available. There was good quality vegetarian food. There were places for people to gather. There was a lot of nurturing support. People were looking after each other spiritually, mentally, emotionally and physically, on the Tor and in the town. And it was an amazing experience.
That was the way to do spirituality; with physical, emotional, mental and spiritual support.
Over 30 years on, this kind of support is the way a spiritual awakening and spiritual journey can be a happy experience and I think the crucial aspect is people getting together physically. Depression and anxiety brought on in the “awakening” process can be improved this way with the right support.